It is about 3 AM in Paris and I am wide awake!!! For the first 24 hours I was here, all I did was sleep, now I cannot even try to sleep as my mind is racing!
A few key notes from Paris -
1. I feel extremely grateful I had this opportunity to come to this amazing city! Beautiful, fashionable and all about wine and food. While it was a great gift - my husband's friend and client invited a small group here for his birthday and anniversary, so we decided to come since I was feeling better and it seemed like a great opportunity, I have spent most of it trying to get over jet lag and fighting the urge to drink. To my social friends out there who have been pregnant or are - how the HELL do you do this (excuse my language?). Today, we had an amazing lunch at this amazing restaurant in Paris and there was wine all over (I mean bottles and bottles of red on every table all day long)! I actually had a glass of champagne they brought me sitting next to me the whole time. Then we walked around shopping with a great guy who is this amazing chef, and we stopped at a cafe and then the Ernest Hemingway Bar at the Ritz where the two boys had cocktails and I had hot chocolate and a faux cocktail. All day long all I wanted was to drink! Not like get wasted, but partake in the wonderful wine and pleasures of Paris! Seriously - I am so sorry if I sound like a big lush - but someone tell me how to do this??? Maybe this was too much of a tempation, at least when I am home I don't even think about drinking!
2. I can no longer wear high heels. I tried so hard yesterday to wear my 4 inch Jimmy Choos I got at the outlet store outside of Palm Springs last summer and it was a big disaster. After about 50 feet I was in pain and this was an outing where we were walking and taking a boat ride, in the rain...Not a good idea! I have realized, I can no longer do it. So, today, my very nice husband bought me a pair of Christian Louboutin's - my first pair - and in the most basic black, lowest heel they had in the store. I knew I had to find something comfortable and practical that I could wear for the duration of this pregnancy. But you know what they say about shoes, an amazing pair can make you feel amazing no matter what! So these will be my magic shoes for so long as I can wear them!
3. The hormones are a raging - I broke down tonight - while trying to sleep - an uncontrollable sobbing, feeling lonely and sad and scared. Just completely at a loss! I know there are people out there pregnant that I can talk to, but no matter what people say, you are still going through your own version of pregnancy, and for me it is still somewhat of a difficult process.
All of this being said, the food and dessert has been phenomenal in Paris and of course the shopping. Now, if I could just start feeling phenomenal inside and out, that would be great.
PLEASE NOTE: This blog is all about my honest take on pregnancy, so it will not always be wonderful and happy!
