Today, I have had one of those days where I just want to scream at someone and then kick someone's butt! The morning started out stressful and I have remained in a funk since 8:00 AM this morning. Yoga did not even help (well, it did help a little because there were so many cute babies in class today and you just wanted to squeeze them all).
I am having a whoa is me day - and again, as you know, this blog is a place for positive and negative entries, so here is my negative one for the week.
I am BLUE! I miss having a social life! I don't think I can enjoy my life without the things I love - friends, good dinners, great wine, all of the energy in the World, a nightlife - and I have none of that right now...Well, I have friends but I don't see them as often because I don't have the energy to go out most nights. And really, what is the point to go to a bar after 9 PM when I am already in my PJ's...and I cannot drink. On top of this, my husband has been gone for almost 10 days and that has just been tough. Work is busy and I have no way to really let off some steam. I feel so disconnected from the person I used to be and from the people and things I loved doing.
How can I feel so blue when I have a beautiful baby growing inside of me you ask? Honestly, I don't know. I am sure I am feeling sorry for myself and I am supposed to just suck it up and find a new way to have fun, but seriously, this is a bummer. And summer has not even started yet. If I see anymore people's Facebook updates about going out for a cocktail after work, or it is a beautiful day out so let's drink, I am going to scream. Or Cry. Or just eat a lot of desert!
I don't want to say I feel lonely, but I definitely don't know how to be around people when I just want to sleep.
Oh mom's of the World.....what advice can you give? How did you make it through this!!! Please, I would love your input, words of support and anything else you can throw out at me. And please, tell me there are other women out there who felt the same way??? On top of everything, I just feel guilty for wishing I could just have some fun and be normal sometimes.
For now, I will eat my chocolate mint chip ice cream and try not to cry in my bowl!
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